17 weeks

Wow, I don't think my belly looks this big in person but I could totally be in denial. I am slightly freaked out I am this big already, but I haven't gained even a pound yet, so I guess I'm doing good.

How far along? 17 weeks.

Total weight gain: As of this past Monday still at Zero.

Maternity clothes? YES! I have been buying like crazy. Still need jeans.

Sleep: Horrible. Bobby has taken to horrid, loud, chainsaw snoring. For the first time ever I kicked him out of bed the other night. See above picture for proof of under eye circles.

Best moment this week: Hearing Bobby gush to one of his best friends from childhood about how excited we are for this baby.

Movement: Lots of flutters and tapping. Also starting feeling what I would describe as rolling. Still very faint, but it's there

Gender: BIG u/s scheduled for Monday, February 8th!!!!

Labor Signs: none

Belly Button in or out? Still in, but very shallow. The top inside part is bulging down and looks like there is a pea in there.

What I miss: Having a good satisfying pee. Now I feel like I have to pee a gallon and only two drops comes out.

What I am looking forward to: Finding some fabulous jeans..lol

Weekly Wisdom: Take 90% of the advice people give you and throw it out the window.

Milestones: Nothing new this week.

Coffee

My mother loved coffee. She drank at least a half a pot, with vanilla hazelnut creamer, before she even went to work. On the weekends she probably put away a whole pot before 11 am. She never drank it all day though, or at night. Just in the morning.

One of my favorite things about going to visit my mother, or her coming to stay with me, was that there was always coffee waiting for me when I got up in the morning. If she had drank it all (because lets face it, I like to sleep in), then she would put on a fresh pot. We would sit on my balcony or if at her house her bedroom, drink coffee sometimes for hours while we discussed what we would do that day, and what we would cook later. Many times there were mimosas, but that is another post. There was always laughter, advice, annoyance at times and lots of love.

Being pregnant I have had to cut back on my love of coffee unfortunately. This morning through, raw from my intro post last night, I made a half a pot of coffee. I added a generous splash of Italian cream creamer (my fav), sat on my balcony, looked out at the water and allowed myself to remember and let the memories wash over me. A neighbor below was on his balcony too. He lit up a cigarette, which would have normally annoyed me to no end. Today I inhaled the scent and knew that while my mother wasn't there in body, she was none the less sitting right next to me.

16 weeks

So I am late to the game. Here I am 16 weeks.



How far along? 16 weeks.
Total weight gain: None.
Maternity clothes? YES! I am still wearing a lot of regular shirts, but they are getting short. I can also wear some of my regular jeans with the rubber band trick and/or the bella band but it's not very comfy.
Sleep: Decent. Crazy dreams but lucky I sleep through the night most days.
Best moment this week: I felt the baby! First some tapping and popping but then a few nights ago I felt a full on kick. It freaked me out so much I jumped off the couch.
Movement: See above question.
Gender: Will know in 3 weeks.
Labor Signs: none
Belly Button in or out? In, but its shallow and the top inside has a bubble, sort of like it's collapsing.
What I miss: Not always being the DD.
What I am looking forward to: OB appointment on Thursday for Quad Screen.
Weekly Wisdom: This baby was so wanted that even when I am not feeling my best, I am amazed and blessed that I get to experience this miracle.
Milestones: Felt baby move.

I will post my previous belly pics soon.

My Story

I signed up on this site in December 2008. I had every intention of starting a blog to chronicle my cooking and life adventures. I wanted to write about my boyfriend Bobby and our journey to parenthood. Our life together and the future. My mother, work, friends, all of it. My plan was to share.

It's now January 2010. What happened? Time slipped away, life got in the way and on the morning of January 28, 2009 I received a call that would alter my life in a way that I never imagined or prepared for. My mother had died. No warning, no goodbye, nothing. Gone. I am an only child and my father had passed away 8 years prior. All my grandparents had been gone for years. In the blink of an eye, one phone call, I became a 32 year old orphan. That's exactly what it felt like. Still does.

I have felt the need to write. I just haven't been able to. Now almost a year since that terrible phone call, it's time. Time to share my thoughts and feelings, to let it all out and to start what I intended back all those months ago.